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Pffft. My life is a train wreck.
Ughugh. My anxiety has been really bad lately, which is why I haven't uploaded ANY drawings. I start doubting the picture in the sketch stage, and by the time I start outlining, I freak out and I'll start panicking, then stop drawing all together. 
It's been really bad. 
Basically, it started after I lost my job. I've been a crippling mess since. I have three friends who've actually been helping me through these anxiety attacks, and one of them is miles away from me at the moment. 

When I'm by myself, I try to play Tekken to get my mind off of it. I've been lovin' me Jin more and more :iconmuahplz:

Everything sets me off though. Mentioning the word 'illness' makes me freak out. I ordered a costume offline, found out the website is horrible, and makes terrible cosplays, and I'm praying to dah lord I'm going to end up lucky.
I ordered it a week ago and it still hasn't shipped. UGH.

I've been having a lot of nightmares, and asthma attacks. I shake a lot, and it's getting harder to perform daily tasks like writing, and eating. 

A lot of people have actually been making things worst for me, which I kinda expected. I don't talk about my problems much Or at least I try not too so it's not really their fault...I do tell them my anxiety is bad, but I guess they refuse to listen and continue to treat me like trash /cough/mybrother/cough/
My dad has actually been a lot of help, tbh. Usually he's the last person I go to for advice. He's been making my mind rest easy, and he's very reassuring. As well as my friends :iconyumidei::iconren-chin::iconrynmonamie: You guys are fantastic~

But I have been drawing a lot. Just...Not stuff I want to show people. I think it looks like garbage. Most of the pictures are of Jin though. I dunno, drawing him makes me feel...better. It gives me this sense of being home. I love drawing Jin. I'm very comfortable with his design and everything, and drawing him relaxes me. 

I owe a lot of pictures to people, but as of lately, whenever I draw something, I almost always end up crying, and guh. Jin to the rescue. If I owe you a picture, please bear with me. I'm still trying to get over these anxiety attacks.

I don't have the money atm to go to a specialist or anything, so I've been basically fighting this battle with nothing more than good friends to support me. Job hunting has not made it easy on me, I'll say that much.

I am trying to make things better for myself though. I've been going out more, and becoming more social to help with the Social anxiety. I'm going on a diet and I'm going to start working out and losing weight for the confidence it will bring me. I'm actively looking for a new job, and trying new things. If I don't start kicking myself in the butt, no one else will. 

I'm setting up my goals, and just trying to overcome obstacles I thought were impossible. By this time next year, I probably won't be the same person. ohlordyIhopeso. 
  • Mood: Anxious
  • Listening to: Kagamine Len- Gigantic O.T.J
  • Reading: Naruto
  • Watching: Inside: McDonalds lolwhy
  • Playing: Tekken Tag Tournament 2
  • Eating: Hashbrowns
  • Drinking: Coke
The only people who say Jin is a dick are the people who started playing Tekken at Tekken 6. 

Like...Play Tekken 3-5 and then you will see.
When I die...Then you will see.

Kids these days...They don't know.

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  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: Latch- Disclosure
  • Reading: Naruto
  • Watching: Cake Boss
  • Playing: Tekken Tag Tournament 2
  • Eating: THIS HORRIBLE FUCKING MINT. WHY AM I EATING THIS!?
  • Drinking: DIET COKE, BUT IT DOESN'T GO GOOD WITH THE MINT
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Mmm...Tekken Tattoo-
So, I'm planning on getting Jin's devil brand on my shoulder soon. This isn't something I thought of out of the blue, it's something I've been really thinking about since Freshman year of highschool. 

A friend of mine (we aren't very close anymore) has told me time and time again that this is going to be a tattoo I am going to regret. I KNOW I'm not going to regret this.

I've always loved Tekken. I wasn't obsessed with it until highschool, but I've always loved it. My very first game was Tekken 2. I vividly remember Jun and Michelle's stage themes. I remember getting upset when Kazuya wasn't in Tekken 3. (Kazuya and Scorpion from MK were my first videogame crushes.) I used to sit in my dads lap while he played Tekken 3. I remember calling Xiaoyu "X" cause I didn't know how to pronounce her name. I used to call Marduk "The friendly giant" cause he didn't hit me while I was fighting him once. I used to think Jin and Xiaoyu were brother and sister. My dad still has a picture of Kazuya I drew in kindergarten. I hated Jin until Tekken 4. I used to play Tekken 5: Dark Rebellion on the bus to school on my psp. I used to draw Jin, Xiaoyu, and Hwoarrang in Sunday School.
Tekken isn't something I just recently got into.
I've always loved it. It's a HUGE part of my childhood. My brother, father and I all bonded over it. 
Jin's devil brand is an icon of the entire franchise. I don't want it just because of Jin. I want it because it's a memento of my childhood. It reminds me of  a happier, simpler time. Nothing she can say can or will affect the way I'm looking at this situation.
My dad is so against me getting this tattoo, but I'm getting a small one, and he'll probably never see it. 

Woo, okay, so Devil Jin cosplay-
There's a con in my town in a few weeks. Amelia Con. I was originally planning on being Sanji, but I'd rather be something big and better. So...Devil Jin. I've got the contacts. Wig. Wings. Horns. and top. This weekend is dedicated to the gauntlets and pants. Once that's over, all I have to do is buy a red and black converse, stud up the red one, spray paint 10 feet of black plastic chains metallic silver, and I'm ready for the con. I'm having a good friend completely change my face up. So basically I have to get up at 7 in the morning that Saturday. I'm entering the cosplay contest, and I hope I place. ; u; 

Alriiighty...Rob Job-
I work at Wal-Mart now. It's alright, I guess. I mean, I'm on my feet from 7 in the morning til 4 in the afternoon. My feet are swelling then hurt so much D': But I get pain 8.15$ an hour, and that ain't bad, my comrade. My first pay check is all for the con. I'm putting 300$ away for it ; u; 
My next pay check is going to be blown off on Jin Kazama sweaters, and redecorating my bed room. Maybe i'll get a nice little flat screen tv for myself. I deserve nice things.
I really do like my job. I work with my really close friend Kat, and all my co-workers are nice. And by co-workers, I mean the remodeling co-workers. I'm a temp for now, and I hope they'll permanently keep me. As for the people who ACTUALLY work for Wal-Mart...Most of the are pretty nice except for one guy. Pissed me off and made me have an anxiety attack today. What a load of hoRSE pISs.
Buuut, other than that, my job is pretty fun. I work with nice people, especially this guy named Kenneth. He's like a big brother to me ;u; 


BTW THERE'S THIS REALLY NICE LOTION, BODY SHIMMER, AND SHOWER GEL I GOT CALLED HAIKU. IT SMELLS LIKE HEAVEN AND IT MAKES MY SKIN FEEL GOOD. BUY. IT.</b>
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Latch- Disclosure
  • Reading: Naruto
  • Watching: Parks & Recreation
  • Playing: Tekken Tag Tournament 2
  • Eating: pizza
  • Drinking: Diet Coke
I GOT A JOB
OH MY LORDY
I DID IT. I FINALLY DID IT. MY. FIRST. FUCKING. JOB.
IS THIS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE AN ADULT!? I WANT MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONEY
JKDFHSKDHFJKASGDKAUJSGYDUKAYJSDGKAYSDJFGKATSDFGJAYSHDFTJKATYSDFGH
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  • Mood: Big Grin
  • Listening to: Summer- Calvin Harris
  • Reading: One Piece
  • Watching: Parks & Recreation
  • Playing: Tekken Tag Tournament 2
  • Eating: VICTORY
  • Drinking: Diet Pepsi
Ghosts by KyokoKazama
Ghosts
I tried to do another lighting test. I actually kinda like this one.
This is my Oc Adela, Tenzu and Bonzu (The little black ghost things)
She can talk to ghosts. Mmm.

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Tekken Fan Button by ButtonsMaker
Jin Kazama by Nana-BeatsOne Piece Sanji Stamp by erjanksItachi Stamp by LuckiiNanaKagamine Rin and Len Stamp by FantasyAshleyStamp Obito by L-monFuturama Stamp by FabulousFabulousSasuke Uchiha Stamp by Shay-SamaStamp: I love cats by jelloweenArmin Stamp by RevivalSnKLevi/Rivaille Stamp by NabiryiLuffy Stamp by LiLanChuuLeo Stamp by vdaymassacreDanganronpa Stamp by MargothMegurineThe Office by extraordi-maryRoxas Rocks Stamp by LenaLawliet
Heritage, Not Hate Stamp by KahunaSniperRQ: Anti Sakura by DoctorMLoliVocaloid: Miku Stamp by cinyuDude Where's my Car stamp by deviant-stampsThat's What She Said Stamp by britstix
Zodiac Stamp: Scorpio by AvengingSeraphimMusic Stamp by TaylorinchainsProud To Be Filipino Stamp by Crystal-ArtistExpectation vs Reality Stamp by FlameSalvoRequest: Annie Leonhardt Stamp by wow1076
Eren Jaeger Stamp by NabiryiAnother Rolling Girl Stamp by hissatsugirlHappy Synthesizer Stamp by hissatsugirlHidan Stamp by NekoNamiAwww, yellow is mellow... by PixieRiot
Favorite Character Stamp 2 by Stamp221L stamp by Lumagastamp akatsuki by DKSTUDIOS05Stamp: Squidward by AMX-269Shy Stamp by StampMakerLKJ
Narutard Stamp by R-A-W-RMiyazaki Stamp by DarkTwilightWolfOne Piece Stamps 3 by MourgebeastJin Stamp by UltimaArrowAlisa Stamp by UltimaArrow
Trevor Phillips stamp by horses27Always tired... by prosaixgas mask stamp by gyenesAnne Hath... :C by Haters-Gonna-Hate-MeShare your joy by Drake1

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You deserve it! Your story is sooo good! :iconhnnghplz: 
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Thank you soooo much for the watch and kind words :D really appreciated <3
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